I'm trying to get back into the swing of things now that baby is here and my six weeks recovery time is over. So back to creating and blogging is at the top of my priority list. Because that's what keeps mama happy and sane, right?!
So wow. All those people who said that having a third child really made no difference to how busy they are - were lying. Or else they are far more capable than I am. Or maybe they have a fantastic support system of people who actually live somewhere in their vicinity.
I'm not going to lie to you, my life is barely organized chaos at the moment.
On February 25th, we welcomed sweet little Arya into our family. Like the pregnancy, the delivery (a c-section, 4 weeks early) was complicated and we were very, very lucky that everything turned out well. We have our fantastic doctor to thank for that, without him, I wouldn't be here.
Anyway, because I had not one, but two major surgeries in less than 24 hours, my road to recovery was a little rocky. I came home from the hospital after having several blood transfusions with my red blood cell count still only about half what it should be. Which meant I was tired from the start, even before we got into the routine of middle of the night feedings and being up all night with a fussy baby every three or four nights.
About three weeks ago, I felt like I was going to crash and burn. But I couldn't, because hubby was having back surgery that week and I was going to be on my own with all three kiddos for a while. So I put on my big girl panties and sucked it up and somehow made it through.
Now we are struggling through the recovery phase after hubby's surgery. He's not even allowed to lift Arya for the next six weeks, so it's all me at the moment. And somehow I'm managing. I don't even feel like pulling my hair out. Yet.
The house is clean. Most of the time anyway. Not right now, because I'm choosing to ignore that pile of dirty dishes and blog instead :) The kids are fed. Not the whole, natural foods they usually eat though, which is the next thing on my list of things to do, I need to get back on our food prep schedule. Because several days last week, my kids had store bought boxed waffles for breakfast. Normal for lots of people, horrifying for me. But I'm trying not to sweat the small stuff right now. I've been reminded by a couple of my good friends at the magazine that this is just a blip in time and before I know, things will be back to normal and the kids won't even remember that they had to eat boxed waffles, lol. Truthfully, I don't think they mind too much.
But the biggest struggle for me has been sacrificing a lot of my creative time. That has been painful. So slowly but surely, I'm trying hard to carve out a little bit of time here and there for me. I'm trying to reorganize things and find ways to get into the studio during the day because quite honestly, I'm too exhausted by the time the kids are bed to even open a jar of paint. I've vegetated on the couch and watched more television in the evenings in the past seven weeks than I have in my life.
It's a struggle, but I'm determined and you can be sure that I'll be posting loads of creative goodness in the near future.